Dear Diary........
So today is a gray day outside. Not much happening this week. Thank God. I have the flu or a really really bad cold. It has been kicking my butt this whole week. Luckily, I have several children that want to take care of me. The only problem, some of them are now sick with the crud. Even my husband is feeling not to hot. I can only pray that this leaves quickly.
I feel a little more peace in my life. My sister Amy is somewhat talking with me now in a positive manner. Not sure how long it will last but I am grateful for this stretch of road. It is very refreshing.
This is the first year that I failed to capture Christmas with the camera. It saddens me a little because I would like to show my children as much as I can how they were when they were young. I know we have memories but pictures are always so much fun to look back on. I also didn't care to think of any new year resolutions. I always seem to maintain the same ones year after year and so this year I decided to not think about it.
I have long term goals in my mind and that has caused a lot of excitement and pipe dreaming. I used to think it was odd as a child that my parents used the phrase "pipe dreaming" however, it fits. I love to dream. I love to achieve my dreams. The hard part is getting the wheel turning but once it is turning I keep on rolling until it is accomplished.
My ever growing list of lists is still determined to keep adding up. I swear I must have an accordion file full of lists; all in my brain of course. Have you ever sat down and just thought about the things you want to accomplish in your life; your bucket list? Oh I have. Many many times. I have so many fantastic adventures on this list. I have been able to cross some off but not many. Not yet.
My birthday is this month. I will be turning 36. My mother told me I am getting old. Thanks! What does that make her then? I don't feel 36. I surely don't act 36. However, I must say I look 36 and then some. Aging is not something I am doing to gracefully. BTW I want to try the Olay product that "allegedly" can erase or lighten dark spots. I did a lot of tanning in high school and now I have these spots showing up on my face. Back in the day I think people referred to them as liver spots. I also had some really weird stuff happen to my skin when I was pregnant with the twins. I think those two situations probably have caused these spots to appear. I refer to it as my Michael Jackson syndrome accept I am turning black and not white. I only have 4 spots but they bug me. So I am hoping in the next few weeks to get this product and try it out. It can't hurt, right? If I had money and by money I mean over 100k in the bank I would seriously consider plastic surgery. I would love to get certain parts of my body back to where it is suppose to be. One of my lovely daughters asked me why I had 4 chins. 4 chins?!?!?!? I looked at her and I said "What did you say to me???" She replied "Why do you have 4 chins" I bluntly stared at her with a bit of hurt and anger in my eyes. I calmly asked her "You are in 3rd grade, and you do know how to count, so how can you say I have that many chins?" Her reply "Because you do" Then she proceeded to touch and count. Good grief! I got up and ran to the bathroom. I know the weight has crept up on me this past year. I do by all means, intend to get it off. It is alot harder to get it off then to put it on. I will do it though. So to help me with that, I am going to take a before picture (not visible to people on the internet, muahahahahahaha) and keep a chart of my weight loss. I might even measure inches. We will see but I will do it and my start date will be posted in another blog. I might even break down and put a before picture.
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