unable to vent correctly...pfft!

The other night I was completely stressed and literally at the end of my rope when I felt the need to vent.  I vented on my husband who in turn tells me that I don't technically vent, I attack.  Boy, I felt bad.  But I can't vent anywhere.  Really.  Not on facebook because then the whole world will see.  Not in a journal because my family will read it, I can guarantee this happening.  I can't exactly vent here either because one day people might actually read what I have written.  So where?!!?!?

They say when it rains it pours.  That is the truth.   When things start going bad, it is like a beach ball rolling down the hill getting faster and faster.

I am going to let some of it off on this blog and hope that it helps me feel some relief.

My sister just lost her children.  Literally.... the courts stated she can only have supervised visitation every Wed evening for 3 hours and then every other weekend she can have supervised visitation for 3 hours at a time.  So one week she sees her children for 3 hours and then the next week for 9 hours.  Why??!!!  Well, it is a long story.  A sad and tragic story too.  My sister has been fighting an addiction to pain pills for almost 6 years now.  As with all addicts the problem gets bigger and more out of control.  My sister however, can not or will not admit she has this problem.  Well her addiction caused her to lose her job or as my sister says "A year long leave of absence"  I kind of feel she would have been fired had she not stated she wanted a leave of absence.  The story gets deeper.  She had an affair and when her husband found out he did what an reasonable man would do.  He left her.  But, he still paid for her rent, gave her a car, paid for the utilities and even bought groceries.  The only thing he did not do was give my sister spending money.  Why should he?!?! He shouldn't have to because he LEFT her.   He still provide the necessities for maintaining an almost normal lifestyle.  She had a job.  If she went to work she would have had money.  Right?   The courts stated she needed to seek counseling for her drug problem before she could get overnight visits.  I hope she can do this. I fear for her life.  It is in a downward spiral.  At some point she has to hit rock bottom.

On another note, my husband recently got employed.  YES!  Well, the kicker is I feel more stressed now.  He works in Auburn and today he had to be there for 4am.  That meant he left before 3am.  Which means I am up before 2am to prepare him to leave.  Well, I am tired.  Too tired to function but yet I can't seem to fall asleep.  Tonight will be an early night for me.

Christmas is once  again right around the corner.  Every year it gets here quicker.  I was rocking the Christmas music earlier in November.  I am still listening to it.  I have high hopes for this season if only I could find the motivation to do it.

Perhaps, I should get in a tanning bed and get some much needed Vitamin Sun.

Redneck and Whitetrash

I am the type of woman that when she doesn't know something I look it up, study it and make an opinion based on the facts I have collected.  Don't come at me and expect me to think that just because ya'll live somewhere else (ummm hello I lived there for 10 years you dimwit) that I don't know the laws.  I am by know means a lawyer BUT I do know that you can google pretty  much anything you want to learn about and have it accessible to you in a fraction of a second.  Man I love the internet.  But, I do miss doing things the old way.  Simple times. When you actually had to go to the library and look something up in a card catalog!  Holy cow, eons ago but I still know how to do it.

This evening my daughter Allison comes to me and says she hears something in the pantry.  I go in there and yeah you can hear something in there.  Then I notice this long skinny tail up against the wall.  My first impression was that there was a black wire hanger in the pantry but, I quickly crossed that off the list when I recalled we only have plastic ones now (again simpler times).  Well as soon as my brain put two and two together I had a complete and totally non controllable fit.  Literally screaming at the top of my lungs, running in place and shaking my hands and arms all over the place.  THEN I mange to somehow slip and go falling with no style whatsoever to the floor.  No, I didn't get hurt.  Yes I am in shock and no I am obessed with my pantry.  I must have checked it at least a dozen times already.  I even put my cat David in the pantry which he didn't like.  So I took David to the basement door, opened the door and put him in.  I quickly shut the door and ran away like I was being chased by bees.  A 1/2 hour later I went to let him out because he wouldn't stop crying.  So whatever is in the basement and pantry must be bigger than David, right?

I hope my father in law and husband can handle this.

not user friendly

I honestly have no clue how to find people on this sight.  I am frustrated beyond all reasoning and to top it off my children are fighting AGAIN!  They just got home from school and you would have to think WWIII just broke out in my home.
My oldest daughter is baking cookies.  Per her usual she made about 2 dozen and then got tired of it so she asked Allison to finish.  Alli is excited and loads the cookie sheet up,  opens the oven and there is a fire in the oven because Makayla managed to drop a cookie as she pulled the last sheet out.  Doesn't say anything and then goes, Oh that is a cookie, right?  Well duh!  Hello..... let me know next time to prevent a fire in the oven.

enough said for now....

flipping facebook

Well this morning I attempt to log into facebook per normal routine.  And guess what?  My account had been disabled during the night.  WTF?!  I have no idea as to why my account would be disabled.  However, I do have some feelings/ideas as to whom and what had happened.  I have never had a problem with facebook or myspace accounts.  NEVER.  Not until someone I know graduated from bootcamp in early Oct. '10.  All of a sudden I started having problems with my account on facebook.  I had to change my password and was also sent a nasty gram from facebook.  Facebook told me that I couldn't request any more friends because a large number of friend requests went unanswered but that in due time I would be able to request friends again.  Facebook also stated that this public domain was to be used to talk with people that I knew or was related to.  WTF?!?!  Every single person on my friends list I know personally.  Really, I do.  So with that in mind I changed my password and made sure it was set to the "difficult" setting.  Last night I was able to log onto facebook and check it. This was the first time since Sat. Morning that I actually was going to spend some time on facebook.  I just briefly gazed at my page and never even looked at the more recent status posts.  Well, I logged off having spent about 15 or so minutes on it.  Got up this morning at 3:45am and was rudely told by facebook that my account is now disabled.  I am pissed.  Really, it is one thing to blame me for your problems but it is entirely different situation when you start to harass or attack my personal accounts.  I just want to rip her head off and chew her ass out once and for all.  some friend.  pfft!  ok done venting about this.....
Thanksgiving is next week and I am excited.  I love spending time with my family especially around a meal that takes all day to cook.  But, I really love the left overs.  Nothing beats Thanksgiving Leftovers.  NOTHING!

On a very sad note.  Next week my sister and her husband have a court date.  I am dreading this.  I have been praying their relationship wouldn't come to this but it appears that it has.  I just pray that the courts listen carefully to each side of their situation and make the best decision it can.  It really is a sad sad place to be in.  I am thankful that I have never had to be in their shoes.  I hope I never do.  It is one thing to say you have done something but an entirely different thing to actually do it.  I don't know the whole story nor do I know if I want to.  It is disgusting, and if it is true, even more disgusting.

So, back to the facebook thingy...... I will wait and see if my account can be opened again and if not I guess I will have to create a new one and start all over on my applications.  Which sucks because I was in a little competition with my husband on a couple of games and I don't want to start back over at level 0s everywhere.

Well I am off to do household chores.